[ They...don't know how to respond to that. Initially, it's shock, just because being acknowledged so directly catches them off guard. But that shock melts into conflict, as they don't really see themself as a victim, nor do they really blame Ghost for the way they felt...his words are at odds with the way they (and the other gems) see their own life. ]
You're the first to see it that way, I'll give you that.
[ Them being "locked away", that is. It's hard to advocate for someone you can't hear or see, and they have to admit that their behavior was likely unsavory to the other gems in comparison to the meek and passive Ghost. So they'd never in their life expected any of the gems to scold Ghost the way he just has. ]
Whether or not Ghost was wrong to feel the way they did about me doesn't matter Saying they should have acted one way or another is pointless. They've been gone for over a century
[ They give him A Look, sitting back from the keys and resting their cheek on their palm. If being with Ghost taught them one thing, it's to be an observer, and they can tell by the way he is reacting that he must be likening this to something else... though they don't have the effort to ask through text; they just watch for his reaction and try to figure it out for themself. ]
[ at that, Lupin shakes his head stubbornly in refusal, looking Cairn in the eyes quite seriously. These are the circumstances of a being extremely unlike him, in a society nothing like his, with a life he can't imagine - he's aware of that. Yet he can't just overlook this. He doesn't want his friend to think they're less than human - inhuman or otherwise. ]
It does matter. They might be gone, but you're still here. No one's more affected by that attitude than you.
[ his tone is firm. ]
I might be the first, but I promise you I'm not the only one who'd say this to you. [ a pause; his gaze softens a little bit, although he remains serious. ] You were locked inside someone else all that time? Then I say I'm lucky I got to meet you once you were free. Cairngorm is grumpy and a little hard to know, but I know they're caring and kind and beautiful person, and I like them.
[ Their eyes definitely widen as he speaks. No one...not one person has ever spoken to them like this. It almost hurts, in a bittersweet way. Only someone like Lupin, who doesn't know their past, can see them as they truly are, but it still feels...validating, even good, to be reassured for once. Not that they know how to express it, other than by the strangely vulnerable expression they look at him with. ]
Ah...
[ There's a small clink when another muted gem falls from their lips, a heavy silence that follows it. The sound pulls them out of the moment, gives them time to snap out of the weakness they'd just showed-- it only takes a slight shake of their head for them to control their expression again, easing into a slight frown. Their movements are slow to pluck the gem from the floor, setting it down on the bed calmly. ]
You have a funny idea of what kindness is.
[ He must be out of his mind, is what they think. They aren't kind; they're "rude, violent, and selfish"-- its hard to look past how Ghost had described them with their dying breath, no matter how sincere Lupin seems here. Its a slippery slope if they read too much into the validation-- it likely is selfish to get drunk off the feeling of being favored. So they need to back away. ]
[ it's certainly the first time he's seen them make an expression like that - and while he'd normally be happy he got Cairngorm to feel something other than disdain, in this context, he can only hope that means what he's saying is getting through to them. They seem done talking about it now, and he doesn't intend to push the issue further. They're not quite close enough for that yet. Cardia was young and clueless about the world; Cairn, on the other hand, has ten times the life experience he does, and he won't patronize them if he can help it.
He does offer a smile at that, though. ]
What can I say? I like keeping strange company. [ honestly, cairn is only slightly weirder than the people he normally hangs out with... ] Do you want to stay here? I'll sleep on the couch, so you can have your privacy.
[ It's too bad they can't talk and it'll take too much time to type you're the strange one to me. They shake their head. ]
The bed might break if I sleep there
[ These weird peasant beds were not built to support 600 pound crystal people-- they'd found that out the hard way with the bed in their own home. And to pull his mattress out and put it on the floor seems a bit much just to accommodate them for one night. Combined with the fact that the last time they'd stayed out too late they'd gotten dragged off into the woods, and that they'd already warned him before coming here they'd crash if it took too long, they don't necessarily feel like they're intruding, but... that doesn't mean they want to make more of a hassle than necessary. ]
I can take cushions out of the couch and put them back Unless you think the other person who lives here will freak out if they see me
[ They shrug. They're fine sleeping without one but if it floats his boat... they pluck the crystal from the bed, typing with one hand before they move to stand. ]
Thanks For letting me use this
[ Did they add the "for letting me use this" belatedly to avoid him thinking the thanks was for anything else? We'll never know (the answer is yes). Anyway, they don't waste time getting out of his proximity, feeling exhausted both from the time of night and from the emotional consequences of digging up their past. It's making them feel more and more like they need to retreat to the comfort of isolation, so they walk out of his room wordlessly after plucking the other two gems from the crate. They don't need him to tell them how to move cushions, after all. ]
[ not so fast, gem-kun. Lupin's not about to let them leave just like that - especially not after actually opening up to him a little bit. Before they can flee the room, he pulls a sheet off his bed in one smooth motion, even with the laptop on it (that's some Lupin magic for you, Cairngorm), and, gently, he sets it on their shoulders. They always feel so cold, after all. ]
There. And thank you for helping me out. [ and not laughing at him too much while he looks like a fool!! He gives them a playful smile, patting their shoulder once before stepping back. ] Sweet dreams. Try not to break the couch.
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You're the first to see it that way, I'll give you that.
[ Them being "locked away", that is. It's hard to advocate for someone you can't hear or see, and they have to admit that their behavior was likely unsavory to the other gems in comparison to the meek and passive Ghost. So they'd never in their life expected any of the gems to scold Ghost the way he just has. ]
Whether or not Ghost was wrong to feel the way they did about me doesn't matter
Saying they should have acted one way or another is pointless. They've been gone for over a century
[ They give him A Look, sitting back from the keys and resting their cheek on their palm. If being with Ghost taught them one thing, it's to be an observer, and they can tell by the way he is reacting that he must be likening this to something else... though they don't have the effort to ask through text; they just watch for his reaction and try to figure it out for themself. ]
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It does matter. They might be gone, but you're still here. No one's more affected by that attitude than you.
[ his tone is firm. ]
I might be the first, but I promise you I'm not the only one who'd say this to you. [ a pause; his gaze softens a little bit, although he remains serious. ] You were locked inside someone else all that time? Then I say I'm lucky I got to meet you once you were free. Cairngorm is grumpy and a little hard to know, but I know they're caring and kind and beautiful person, and I like them.
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Ah...
[ There's a small clink when another muted gem falls from their lips, a heavy silence that follows it. The sound pulls them out of the moment, gives them time to snap out of the weakness they'd just showed-- it only takes a slight shake of their head for them to control their expression again, easing into a slight frown. Their movements are slow to pluck the gem from the floor, setting it down on the bed calmly. ]
You have a funny idea of what kindness is.
[ He must be out of his mind, is what they think. They aren't kind; they're "rude, violent, and selfish"-- its hard to look past how Ghost had described them with their dying breath, no matter how sincere Lupin seems here. Its a slippery slope if they read too much into the validation-- it likely is selfish to get drunk off the feeling of being favored. So they need to back away. ]
But we got off topic. Its getting dark out
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He does offer a smile at that, though. ]
What can I say? I like keeping strange company. [ honestly, cairn is only slightly weirder than the people he normally hangs out with... ] Do you want to stay here? I'll sleep on the couch, so you can have your privacy.
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The bed might break if I sleep there
[ These weird peasant beds were not built to support 600 pound crystal people-- they'd found that out the hard way with the bed in their own home. And to pull his mattress out and put it on the floor seems a bit much just to accommodate them for one night. Combined with the fact that the last time they'd stayed out too late they'd gotten dragged off into the woods, and that they'd already warned him before coming here they'd crash if it took too long, they don't necessarily feel like they're intruding, but... that doesn't mean they want to make more of a hassle than necessary. ]
I can take cushions out of the couch and put them back
Unless you think the other person who lives here will freak out if they see me
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but oh, right, they weigh [redacted] kilos. Lupin nods. ]
I don't think he'll care. At least let me give you a blanket, though.
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Thanks
For letting me use this
[ Did they add the "for letting me use this" belatedly to avoid him thinking the thanks was for anything else? We'll never know (the answer is yes). Anyway, they don't waste time getting out of his proximity, feeling exhausted both from the time of night and from the emotional consequences of digging up their past. It's making them feel more and more like they need to retreat to the comfort of isolation, so they walk out of his room wordlessly after plucking the other two gems from the crate. They don't need him to tell them how to move cushions, after all. ]
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[ not so fast, gem-kun. Lupin's not about to let them leave just like that - especially not after actually opening up to him a little bit. Before they can flee the room, he pulls a sheet off his bed in one smooth motion, even with the laptop on it (that's some Lupin magic for you, Cairngorm), and, gently, he sets it on their shoulders. They always feel so cold, after all. ]
There. And thank you for helping me out. [ and not laughing at him too much while he looks like a fool!! He gives them a playful smile, patting their shoulder once before stepping back. ] Sweet dreams. Try not to break the couch.